a.step.into.the.history

Time

2012-01-16T10:48:00.001-08:00

Two years ago i fell in love to a girl.

Today she already become a Woman.

But yeah, all the reason why i love her still same and know I even have bigger spectrum.

That girl, already grow into a woman. she is now wiser than me, she is now looks more mature than me.

But yeah, still weird! when will the time i call her mine will come yah?

Hahaha, don't hope to much brother! you right?! *BRO FIST!*

See you got it bro!

Let things flow in the most suitable manner!

When i do post?

2012-01-16T10:41:00.001-08:00

I somehow realize when i do a post it's always when i was fall in love.

When i don't really into someone or already in relationship. I stop posting..

hahaha

desperate

2011-04-24T02:02:00.000-07:00

some times, in life we have time where we are desperate..
yeah even the most confident person with a high spirit and motiation have time to be desperate enough.

yeah that is a matter of situation and condition..

there is this condition like this, even me will going down so bad..

even i'm proud to say that i have a high motivational skill toward myself, and also super high confidence.

i must say this is my time of going down, this is the part of your life where you are going down so bad..,

when you feel you make the bad choice, you make a choice that will destroy someone relationship, and you know that choice is bad enough.

you try to keep motivate yourself that, this isn't a bad choice but you simply can't resist it,

you need this kind of time, you nee the time where you feel desperate and miserable out of your league..

be your deep feeling where you are afraid to move on and straight for the best.

you also believe leaving this isn't a solution.

you must keep forward and fight for everything.

but the pain, yeah it's painful and sucks.

but when you stop today, you will regret it.

i make a bad choice but i don't regret it

why in the hell you must regret your bad choice?

FIGHT for it, make your choice become the bad but right choice..

you can Sabar, yes you can..

but in the end you must realize that even you sometimes need times like this, where you write a blog..

throwing away your feeling.. believe that this is the best media where you can do it..

where not lot of people can read it and you feel secure..

especially when the one that you love didn't know you write here..

Sabarudin Adinugroho
711
24 April 2011
One week before your birthday.

hurt

2011-04-24T00:34:00.000-07:00

it's hurt..

the idea, i should be ready for this..

and i don't complain with this current condition.

this is the idea of i already try and yeah sometimes there is thing you shoulnd't know.

i must speak the idea that my current life isn't bad..

i must see this hurted part is part of my journey.

and yeah, if i dont survive this part i cant fight for the next step.

sabar, you must fight..that condition shouldn't stop you.

you already getting this far, you must continue..

fight sabar, dont chicken out..

yes you can fight!

sabarudin.adinugroho

That is just wrong!! That is just WRONG ! WRONG and WRONG !!

2011-04-22T21:51:00.001-07:00

Hi, long time since my last post..
i would like to express a lot of thing here..
but what i would like to express is actually quiet simple, it's all about wrong things.

right, several people say doing wrong thing is wrong and it's sucks..

but what is the definition of wrong things?

i do think that is a very normative value, the idea is you like or not to do it?
are you used to do that or not?
are you that thing happen everyday??

when you don't like it, you can say it is wrong..
when you aren't used to do that, you can say it is wrong
when that something unusual, you can say it wrong..

i do that all the time, i always say i don't do wrong things
i put a strong border on my life that i wouldn't do that..

but here go the story of me, like a year ago there is people telly me that eating friend banana with chili taste awesome but i don't believe it..

i say this, "Yes, it may taste good, it may taste awesome, but sorry..it's just wrong, and i don't do wrong thing"

but yesterday there is this girl told me same thing, "ENAK! rasanya itu enak! pake sambel itu enak!" and my answer still same,"Maybe it's good, but it's just wrong and I don't eat it because it's wrong"

but in less then 12 hours, i do a wrong thing. but yes i enjoyed so bad !!

I even yelling and jumping in the middle of street to express my happiness!!

that's crazy right? yeah, it's freaking crazy...

then i realize, doing something wrong isn't always bad..
it's about courage to get out from you safe zone, in the zone that I always say things wrong.

that's is my safe zone and i will quit that zone.

How??

my first action is, Go to Beautika (Manadonese restaurant) and order that friend banana with chili !!

Cheers,

Sabarudin Adinugroho

Sense of Security

2011-04-19T20:17:00.000-07:00

How to make someone feel secure?

I make a big decision, yeah I'm throwing my self to the same hole again

but I will never regret this decision..

yes for you CEL.

I will do it..

I will jump to that hole again to bring you sense of security..

and of course, a better relationship.

Sabarudin Adinugroho

A Blast !!

2011-01-28T09:57:00.000-08:00

2011.

Start this year with a lot of things..
Betting on travel agency..
Still don't want to stop debating..
Purchase my first ORIGINAL Zara Jacket *underline the original mate, yes this isn't KW !!)
Become DCA for two big competition..
Start to work out again..

any way.. what is everything for??

I have terrific love relationship..
which i don't have any bottom line to say..
It will end soon..

Everything in this world always distributed equally or at least looks equal.

Got my joy and also got my misfortune.

But I have one conclusion,

I START THIS YEAR WITH A BLAST !!

29 January 2011

decision to be make

2010-08-16T13:57:00.002-07:00

When you love someone,

Make sure you trust him/her and never ever doubt him/her..

Because when you doubt him/her, he/she will feel a great pain.

I already feel the freaking pain.

I don't know anymore what I need to do,

all my effort seen like nothing in front of your eyes.

I think I screwed everything,

but no,

I already try my best

This 2 last months aren't easy..

I fight so hard,

I try to make sure my mind that future are out there,

And everything is okay..

That the Edelweiss will bloom into your heart,

and break all doubt and distrust inside you

But the price is just too high,

It cost my heart been hurt

I can't not let my heart hurt all the time

I know this is so egoistic

But I can't let pain stay in my heart..

I need to end it.

There is 2 option to end it,

One, is you trust me 100% and loves me into the fullest extent like I do to you (pay what I already gave you)

Two, is I end this for the sake of myself

I haven't decide,

But, it's 40% for one and 60% for two..

You need to convince me to take one.

I ' M T I R E D

brain freezing

2010-08-16T13:52:00.000-07:00

When your brain freezing

When your heart freezing

Always need a warm hand

To warm brain and heart

To solve the freezing cubic

By melting it

Where are those warm hand come?

Where are you ?

Pain?

2010-07-31T05:44:00.000-07:00

You know what?

I hate it..

I just hate it..

Gw tuh kesel banget dari kemarin..

ada ajah yang mau buat gw emosi..

kayak kesel se kesel nya udah gw..

bangsat lah..

ANJING !

Addendum of Serenity

2010-06-25T00:38:00.001-07:00

Addendum of Serenity, this word isn't familiar right??

Yeah, gw membuka kamus thesaurus untuk mencari ini *lebay mampus gw !! padahal cuman pakai free thesaurus search yg di intenet*

Addendum berarti sebuah lampiran atau tambahan it's like appendix actually..

Serenity adalah ketenangan, well yes it's directed to me for making a betterment.

Duniaku sudah mulai kehilangan ketegangannya, lost the thrill of having a great race between life and death *lebayyyyyy*

udh beberapa hari ini gw sedang berusaha intropeksi diri, sedang mencari apa yang salah terhadap diri gw..

Turns out ternyata gw lagi lari..

gw lagi tidak sadar kenyataan..

my 8320 is always ring, and I always hope that's her and give an explanation to me..

due everything already happen I do realize that I don't want to be that skeptical thing that always see bad things..

but I can't neglecting those mind and trauma..

Yes gw trauma abis dengan masalalu gw yang setiap kondisi ini terjadi pasti akan juga terjadi hal yang menyulitkan diri gw, dan yes it's so called another break-up..

Become that so called Mister-no-one-wants-you..

Well, yesterday Melon Coconut Pearl at the Canteen with Dimas Hokka is great yeah awesome actually..

I really need myself hanging around with alcohol before I run our of nerve and tension then turns out into that another-selfish-bastard-who-want-to-make-you-cry-by-only-see-his-face..

I currently need my Addendum of Serenity, I need it for a peaceful mind of mine..

Sabarudin Adinugroho

In Search of His Addendum of Serenity in this broken earth.

Jakarta, 3:04 PM

25 June 2010

is having a very high tension of life currently..and enjoy it so BAD !!

2010-05-16T09:01:00.000-07:00

hidup sedang sangat menyenangkan..

the race of life and death is getting more serious and fun..

sekarang sudah kumiliki dia yang mengasihi ku dan menyayangi ku..

sekarang sudah kumiliki hidup yang penuh dengan semangat dan perjuangan..

but that's not the end..

I need more action !!

action action and action..

let's take a deep breath so you can fight more in the future..

the way you fight your own ego as your biggest enemy is to end it using you heart which supported by your logic..

I can not lie anymore..

I love her so bad right now..

be grateful is the key to love you..

and yes like what she said to me..

Now, you already become watchman for another girl

Yes, Sweetie..

It's not you anymore..

and you and me will be grateful for that..

A grateful night,

11.11 PM

May 16 2010

family? is it for real??

2010-05-05T09:00:00.000-07:00

What is family are??

What are they??

Are they a bunch of liar who pretend loving each others?

And at the end of the day hitting each others with chair??

Is it what we call family??

Family (looks like) is something I don't want to have again..

If it's a form of holistic of marriage..

Then I will not married anyone..

Hellish Night

In the place that I never call home..

5 May 2010

11.03 PM

it's another Gift..

2010-05-01T13:32:00.000-07:00

It's another gift for me to know her..
Like this are the blank spot that I need to fill in..

Like will having my own path right now..
and she will have her own path also..

let's just hope that we will meet in the way achieving our dream..

Well, a decent conversation between you and me is always a good one..

I really love that conversation..
and yes..
I make a note on that one..

Well, my life will moving fast now..

I know my next goal to do..

I know the next task I need to finish out !!

HEAR HEAR baby !!

this are the way we need to moving in and out !!

The way that people say it's good to know how to survive in this miserable life..

The way to achieve your dream not by dreaming but by keep trying to fulfill it !!

Well, there is always another way to love another woman..

But you know it well sweetie,

That some part of mine will be yours..

at least until I post this blog..

One can believe, and one can let it be

hahaha

Jakarta,
3:37 AM
May, 2 2010

2010-04-26T15:25:00.000-07:00

It's clear enough..like Franc said, "It's call temptation, to test your heart..if you can survive this maybe you deserve her, if you failed to survive this temptation, it's clear that you don't deserve her.. but never forget that maybe she isn't temptation..she is the answer of your prayer.."

Well, this are the thing..

I'm walking through contradiction..

I'm start to have religion..
I'm start to study..
I'm start to practice more..

and I need to increase my maturity level..

And I'm no longer dreamer..

I'm The Never Stop Trying..

Jakarta at Morning, April 27, 2010
5:28 AM

Somewhat a Gift..

2010-04-26T15:10:00.000-07:00

Riandy
Muhammad Iqbal
and Win Fortunata

Three finest gentleman from North Sumatra that already give something to me..
They teach me something

Teach me how to become humble and humble again and again.
How they teach me and show me something..

How I admire Riandy for his learning skill which is so fast..
the way he absorb my knowledge..
the way he practice my ideology..

Riandy, you really are a Quick Learner..

Muhammad Iqbal, there is always a Man that can stand by and fight the wind..
but also there is a man who can move with the wind but keep still stood standing..
Your maturity that already surpass your age..
You teach me something Bal..

Muhammad Iqbal, you really are a gentleman..

Win Fortunata, if I should proud of you.. maybe I can't..
You really looks like me but with a more bigger talent..
Win, study more in your anger and ego..sure you will surpass me..but don't do something stupid..
the way you fight and keep trying to stand in my training method..
even still do those push up even you can't..
even I know you don't like it..
is really are something..

Win Fortunata, Study to control your anger and emotion so you will become one of the Indonesia finest debater..

Well, I'm really proud to become your coach..
I'm really proud of you people..

you guys teach me a lot.. you guys give me a lot of things..

people..
You guys are the best student that I ever had..

Cheers,

Jakarta
5:21 Am
April, 27 2010

It's an A..

2010-04-22T00:15:00.000-07:00

It's an A..

My first ever A..

I'm proud of this..

Tapi masih ada tugas lain yang sudah menunggu ku..

harus memperbaiki diri sendiri terus terus dan terus !!

harus mencoba mencoba mencoba dan terus berusaha tanpa lelah !!

3 May 2010..

11 days to the moment of truth..

Jakarta

2:19 PM

April, 22 2010

Journey..

2010-04-19T09:39:00.000-07:00

Breaking 5th..

not bad lah..

But it's not enough..

I need to work more and more..

IMPROVE IMPROVE IMPROVE !!

JANGAN BERENTI MENCOBA !!

SABARUDIN ADINUGROHO SUDAH BUKAN PEMIMPI LAGI !!

DIA ORANG YANG TIDAK MENGENAL LELAH DALAM MENCOBA !!

11:43 PM

April, 19 2010

I won't give up for us !!

2010-04-19T08:18:00.000-07:00

I won't give up for us..

the day are coming..

I started to not smoking more then 6 bars a day..

should go stop faster..

3 May is coming soon..

My Sword and Armour..

2010-04-13T01:40:00.000-07:00

It's been four years..

I've fallen for you.

Everytime i had a chance to meet you, I will take it..

every chance that need me to fight on..

I will fight..

but after this all years..

after all..

I don't give any significant things to you..

I don't create anything..

it's all empty right now..

I think is are the stop point..

I need to take another rest..

this time..

I don't now until when..

if last time i leave you for 6 months..

well, I'm not totally leave you..

I'm still trying to interact with you..

but yeah..

I don't have my point right now..

I don't have my strength to take my sword..

all are blur right now..

my vision??

I've lost it for a moment..

I don't see myself with my sword of rebuttal and armour of argument..

past out..

maybe this is it..

the end of my era..

I will just become an observer for undefined time..

this time I don't know when i will take my sword of rebuttal and armour of argument again..

maybe next November, maybe next year, maybe next 2 years, maybe never..

I've decide, this is it..

My Limit..

and I need to take a rest..

Now, I will just doing observation on you, without having my sword and armour

Sabarudin Adinugroho

April 13, 2010

3:53 PM

2010-04-02T08:03:00.000-07:00

26 hours already

It really takes a lot to do this..

it takes like half of my soul that already attached to cigar..

and know I change my favorite cigarettes with a buble gum.

feel stupid and weird you know..

but I must get used to this thing.

I must start to change..

there still a few weeks before 3 May 2010..

Okay people..

I must fight more and more and more..

Stop stop and stop dude..

for your own better life !!

Jakarta

April, 2 2010

10.10 PM

this is something call right..

2010-02-09T00:32:00.000-08:00

it's not right to have shelter, it's right to buy shelter
it's not right to have job, but it's right to apply for job
it's not right to beloved, but it's right to fight for love

wait and see will not give anything..

asking and wishing will not give anything..

you need to work on it..

you need to fight for it..

you need to suffer for it..

and (hope) you will get what you want..

february 9, 2010

sabarudin.adinugroho

mail, dream, and today

2009-12-06T19:18:00.001-08:00

Yesterday a mai come to mailbox and I read it to know what happen..and yes the mail sounds good..I'm happy to read the news..
But at the other wise I confused but then I believe no need to worry about that..

Than comes the dream..
Dream of my old lover..2 years ago..
In that dream I meet her again, this timee her family accept me. They are so nice to me..

And yes like in the past..I once again disspointing her..
She run from me again..
I do my best to find her..
I run to the place where I leave her..
But no sign of her..
She turn off her mobile phone..
I got wicked and yes *poof*
I woke up..

Then until right now..
I'm thinking about purpouse of that dream..

Is it tell me to not do same mistakes??
Is it tell me that I stil fallin for my ex??

For now..
I take stance that my dream is only want to tell me to not do same mistakes like I do in the past..
And even if I still fallin for my ex.. I denied it..I become denial..you still my unforgetable..
but..
I know there are someone more important in my life right now..

And it's you my weirdo girl..

mail, dream, and today

2009-12-06T19:18:00.000-08:00

GOD do exist..

2009-10-13T11:17:00.000-07:00

True love do exist..
True faith do exist..
True miracle do exist..

Do I feel that way?
The way you look tonight??

Thinking of you make me flying into the eternity..
Into true 7 skies of colors..

I wish I'm not dreaming..
I wish this is real..

Now, believe GOD do exist..

Now, I can open my Eyes..

2009-09-27T16:01:00.000-07:00

All this time

I can open and see that the problem come from myself

But this time I'm blind

I don't even realize my mistakes

Thanks a bunch for your advices and critics

It help me to stand again..

Thanks a lot..Now I can see well again

And realizes that it's not about them

It's about me and 'My First Love'

'First Love'

I'm back

Hope you can accept me again

This time I'll become your servant..

Lesson of Life

2009-09-07T21:11:00.000-07:00

"is happy because he know there is someone out there that have bigger love than himself for that girl..and he also know that he can trust that man..that man will never dissapointing her..now, it will be time to find another place to stop by for himself.."

Menerima kenyataan.

itu yang saya lakukan.

Kadang kenyataan itu memang pahit.

Tapi anda tak dapat menghindarinya.

Anda mungkin bisa tidak mengulanginya di masa depan.

Tapi terimalah.

Terima hal yang terjadi.

Meskipun itu adalah hal yang menyakitkan.

Pasti ada hikmah yang tersingkap di balik segalanya.

"There must be a bright side for us to smile"

Saya sekarang mempercayai kalau hidup itu tidak berdasarkan keindahan semata.

Ini adalah tentang bagaimana anda merasa nyaman.

Ini adalah tentang bagaimana anda merasa bahagia.

Bukan bagaimana anda menggapai yang tercantik.

Bukan bagaimana anda menggapai yang termanis.

Something beautiful is not always the best

sabarudin.adinugroho

when you realize that you need me..you know how to find me..I'll be waiting there..

2009-08-26T21:22:00.001-07:00

when you realize that you need me..you know how to find me..I'll be waiting there..

hope you read it.

Somebody's Me

2009-08-26T05:22:00.000-07:00

Somebody's Me (Engrique Iglesias)

You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I refell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you with somebody else

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that someday you will see
That Somebody's Me

How, How could we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that someday you will see
That Somebody's Me

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory
You, will you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that someday you will see
That Somebody's Me

I hope someday you will realize that somebody is me..

When you realize it..

You know how to find me..

I'll be there waiting for you..

are you alright?

2009-08-22T07:32:00.000-07:00

are you alright??

well.. maybe you can't think clear enough..haha..

than do thinks..

realize it faster will be better..

hahaha..

it's about her..

2009-08-08T10:42:00.001-07:00

JOVED 1st day already end..

yeah..

g nervous abis hari ini..alhasil speech g jelek semua..

damn..

JCM is quite boring and also it's kinda not a good place to see politic working..

but,

tadi telpon dia..walau hanya mungkin 3 menit..

but it's memorable..

g langsung semangat lagi abis telp dia..hehe..

i don't know..she got my spirit within her..hahaha..

lebay deh g..wakakakak..

but really..i miss her so much..i want to see her face right now..yeah..

one week to go dude..

i'll meet her soon..

just need to be patience..

i miss her..

2009-07-29T11:43:00.000-07:00

3 hari sudah..
setiap sms yang masuk g berharap itu adalah sms mu..
tapi..gk ada..gk ada sms yg g tunggu..

g habis..g udah jatuh kedalam perasaan itu..

g gk bisa ngelakuin apa pun sekarang..telp g gk diangkat..sms gk dibales..
g gk tau apa yang harus g buat sekarang..jgn tinggalin g..
ko gk mau kehilangan kamu..

tp kalau memang ini yg terbaik..

ya sudah..

I'll set you free and try to find the day..
The day you come back..
Even if you far away..
Even if you I'll never come back..

why i love you?

2009-07-28T23:35:00.000-07:00

Why I love you?

I don't love because you are precious for me..
I love you even if you aren't that good or you have a sad past..
I love you even if you hurt me..

G lagi di surabaya sekarang..and yeah..g jatuh cinta..bukan sama kota ini, bukan sama orang yang ada di kota ini, tp g jatuh cinta sama dia yg sangat apa adanya..g nyesel kemarin g berbuat salah sama dia..tmpakny itu menciptakan gap diantara kita sekarang..dan g gk mau gap itu ada..g terlanjur sayang..kata sayang diucapkan setelah kenal 8 hari? Mungkin gk? MUNGKIN lah!! Ada orang yg baru g kenal 7 hari tp qta sempet jadian..walau cuman sebentar..but it take a year to forget her..yeah..g takut itu terulang dn itu kesalahan g..g takut gagal..

Girl..I'll try my best to make you smile forever and ever..

Love you..

saBaR
Surabaya 29 July 2009 - 1:45 PM

setelah hibernasi 16 jam..

2009-07-19T04:10:00.000-07:00

start playing twitter..

norak banget yah g..

hare gene baru buat twitter?!!

haha..

bodo amat lah..

abis g dulu gk ngerti sh twitter itu apaan dan gunanya apaan..

wakakakaka..

well..

16 hours of hibernation..

(DAMN!! targetnya kan 18 jam!!!)

kerjaan sudah siap sedia menungu ku..

OMG..

tabungan baru ada 300rb..

baru 10%..

moga" bulan depan udh dapet..

hehe..

tapi g bingung deh..

apa g mau coba main swinde yah??

i mean..

kans buat dapet barang murahnya ada gitu..

tp yah..

resiko juga..

shortcut sh..

don't know nh..

g masih bingung..

haha..

tired..

2009-07-16T15:38:00.000-07:00

CAPE!!

haha..

lagi cape banget nh..

well..

kerjaan g gk habis habis..tired really..

feels like HELL!!

JOVED, NUEDC, BungRam n EXPO HIMA+BNEC, TKH,dn seminar..

duh..

cape abis g..

tadi selesai rapat jam 2..

ini ngetik dan ngutak ngatik ide di kepala..

baru jam segini selesai 5 games buat outbound yang udh selesai di g salurkan ke kertas..

aih aih aih..

need a lot of break!!

but..

hmm..

i was thinking that..

this is life..

this i how everything goes..

I'm so lucky man..

I mean not all people in age of me feel this kind of condition..

like I learn something before I really need to study it..

this is only a practice for future..

I mean..

in the future things like this will happen everyday..

this is a very good oppurtunity to study more and more and more and more !!

haha..

I've got my spirit back..

thx to people that inject my body with lot of spirit!!

arkhhh...

2009-07-10T07:03:00.001-07:00

males banget..

besok kuliah jam 7 pagi!!

duh tadi juga kuliah jam 7 lagi..tuyul nh emang..jadwal SP g jam 7 semua..

mana tadi kelasnya..

kelasnya..

hiksss..

mw nangis g..

asli dh..

bener-bener gk ada penyemangat kuliahnya!!

BUREM!!

haha..

hari ini g juga baru tau..akhirnya..

debate di JOVED..haha..

asik team mate g mr.logic sama mr.matter box!!
hohoho..

senangnya!!

tp tetap harus research..

hix hix..

tapi ya udh lah yah..

g ke JOVED kan bukn cuman buat debate terus pulang kan..

g ada tujuan gituloh!!

hahaha..

dah akh..

mau bobo..

btw..

kalau ada yang tau issue-issue hot tentang ini.. bagi bagi yah..

Latest issue/article about:

puppy mills

ADB should prioritize giving loans to environmentally- friendly projects

Lifestyle in this global society yang lagi happening..

kalau ada drop comment yah!!

2009-07-09T12:46:00.001-07:00

story of a boy..

18 February 2009 at 01:02 | Edit note | Delete

semua berawal dari kegilaan itu..
kegilaan g pas SD yang addict banget sama warnet..
sejak kelas 5 sd g udh addict sama warnet..

terus g masuk SMP dibuang jauh ke daerah jonggol..
g asrama disana..
bukan na tambah bener malah g jadi tw nama na rokok dan miras..
itu kelas 1 smp..
disana cuman 1/2 tahun..
nyokap g gk tahan ngeliat g makin hari makin kurus kyk anak gk keurus dan makin berandal..
pindahlah g ke Lemuel..
ketemu banyak temen..
ketemu banyak tipe orang..
disana keragaman terjadi..
gk sentralisasi..
dari yang rese sampe yang hati na emas ada disana..
g gk tw apa-apa..

g belajar banyak tentang hidup dan manisnya disana..

2 1/2 tahun disana banyak masanya..
ngeroko wc sekolah terus diskorsing..
cabut dari sekolah ketauan..
banyak dh..
dah kyk berandal..
tapi disana g masih bisa maintain nilai" g buat di standar rata-rata..

g pikir gpp kalau g jdi bajingan asal g pinter..
hahaha..
SMP itu..

masuk ke SMA..
sangtimur..
tmpat baru g belajar hidup..
tapi kali ini g belajar pahit dan kerasnya hidup..
mungkin kalau gk sekolah disana g gk akan survive jadi kyk gene..

gk mungkin g bisa ngurus event segede NEO..
disana g juga jatuh cinta sama debate..
damn itu buat g gila..

g bener" cinta ama itu kegiatan..

2x gk naek kelas membuat g harus cabut dari sangtimur..
ngerasa jadi orang tolol sedunia g bisa gk naek kelas 2x..
tapi ya udh lah..
mau dikata apa??emang masa g cuman sampe disana..
gk bisa perpanjang kontrak lagi g disana..

g pindah ke 65..
SMA negeri..

sekolah yang ngajarin g cara buat jadi rebelious sebebas-bebasnya..
g jadi orang paling bangsat disana..

g tukang buat masalah..
tukang bolos..
gk ada takutnya sama guru..
semua memang ada pangkal masalahnya seh..
masalah pribadi g..
terlalu pribadi buat g ungkapin..
tapi tu sekolah g juga benci abis..
benci banget gua sumpah asli..

nutupin semua peluang g buat lomba osn g di cancel..
lomba speech ngurus izin keluar 3 jem..
g ampir telat gara" itu..

mau lomba debate gk dikasih..
duit daftar transport bilangnya diganti tapi kgk diganti"..

tai banget dah tuh sekolah..
keki g maseh..

guru-guru yang rasis ama gue..(emang dosa yah g jadi cina??)

untung g puna temen" yang kgk rasis dan ngeliat g sebagai bagian dari mereka..

g gk tahan disana..
g putusin buat cabut sma..
g ambil paket c dan g kuliah ajah..

akhir na masuk g ke binus ambil akuntansi..

sekarang g ngeliat journey g..
selama ini..
g udah banyak buang waktu kalau kata orang..

tapi ternyata itu bukan buang-buang waktu lagi men..

itu bagian dari perjalanan g sampe sini..
kalo g gk kena DO..
kalau g gk ketemu guru" keparat di 65..

g gk akan sampe di titik ini..
titik dimana g dikenal sebagi hardworker..

tapi..

g merasa people should know who i really are..

g itu adalah bajingan tengik yang lagi berusaha cari muka..
sekali g pernah jadi bajingan tetep ajah g bajingan..

tapi itu lah g..
g cari muka kerjaan na..

g itu pemalas lagi asli na..

cuman yah g demen cari muka..
maka na g kerja keras..

g kgk tau g sukses atau gk nipu semua orang yang g kenal..
tapi yang pasti ajah seh..

semua orang harus tau siapa g sebenernya..

orang paling gk harus tau garis besar dari background hidup g..
biar g keliatan tololnya..

cape dianggap pinter atau mampu kerjain ini itu..
CAPE GUA !!

mending g jadi tolol kyk dulu..

ini kenyataan hidup semua..
kgk ada yang g karang..

love story g juga udh banyak yang gagal..
cacat g dalam bagian itu..
g itu tipe pacar yang ditolak orangtua..
ya iyah lah yah..
kalo g punya anak cw juga kgk akan g kasih pacaran ama co kayak gue ini..

g bingung..
g stress sebenernya..
nahan semua nya..
tapi mau diapain lagi..

kgk tw g mau omong apa lagi..

semua sampe detik ini..
gk tau berapa banyak nilai kehidupan yang udh g dapet..
banyak banget sh..
tapi asli..

cara dapetinnya sakit banget..
try for suicide?
udh..

g sering gk mampu nahan semuanya..

tapi yah g masih survive seh ampe sekarang..
tapi sampe kapan lagi yah g bisa survive??

hah..

cuman g yang tau..
cuman g yang bisa nentuin..
sampe sejauh mana g mau tekan diri gue..

semoga g bisa teken diri g sampe g gk punya darah mengalir di badan..

GUA KAGAK TAHAN LAGE !!

dah g copy semua..

2009-07-09T12:41:00.001-07:00

http://vincentius-adinugroho.blog.friendster.com/ officially rest i peace..haha..

blog g yang lama sudah akan g non aktifkan..

(emang g udh gk aktif blogging sejak 1 tahn yang lalu sh..haha)

but, the memory should go on..haha..

know i'll post my notes from facebook..

haha..

2009-07-09T12:40:00.003-07:00

Good Night My Valentine

Wednesday, February 20th, 2008

Good Night My Valentine

the moonlight looking forward to me
the nite was very calm
here alone without a thing
trying to find you
but i got nothing

sick of loneliness
sick of you

hoping you came and coloring the nite

here i find i’ve lost you
lost the faith of the fairy tale

begging for sorry
nothing i got

let the truth became lies
let the lies became truth
let me love you
let me dreaming of you

good nite my valentine

2009-07-09T12:40:00.001-07:00

my life must move on..

Wednesday, September 26th, 2007

my life must move on..
if is still stuck in this things..
in this fucking moron things..
i will never move on..
i must move on man..

why i must standing in this spot?
waiting for nothing..

this is some quote from the song i heard this few days..

"It’s time for Revolution" - Mr. Ego - OST. Gie

"Cause I saw the end before we’d begun" - Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt

"But then I spent so many nights just thinking how you’d done me wrong.
I grew strong.I learned how to get along." - I Will Survive - Cake

"And you’ll see me with somebody new. I’m not that stupid little person still in love with you." - I Will Survive - Cake

"I’m a leading man and the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate" - This Ain’t A Scene, It’s An Arm Race - Fall Out Boys

"Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories" - Thanks For The Memories - Fall Out Boys

"The best way to make it through with hearts and wrists in tact is to realize" - I’m Like A Lawyer With The Way I’m Always Trying To Get You Off (Me & You) - Fall Out Boys

Wednesday, September 26 2007 8.47 PM

s.a.b.a.r.24

2009-07-09T12:39:00.003-07:00

i luph my new page of life !!

Saturday, August 18th, 2007

guys..
gw akhir na masuk ke SMAN 65..
gw cukup puas bisa schl disini..
banyak yg bilang di 65 th kurang mutu dan gtw" deh..
tp buat gw 65 itu udh cukup bagus kok!
temen" gw asik" and gk racist..
terus gw pun bisa lebih berkembang di 65..
haha..
pa lagi g udh di kasih izin buat join e-com..
haha..
really fun !

disisi lain..
gw juga merasa gw sudah memulai langkah kesuksesan g di S.T.E.P
gw yakin banget kalo g bisa mensukseskan S.T.E.P angkatan 2007-2008 yang sebagian g bina..

selain itu gw juga mulai menemukan kepingan-kepingan puzzle cinta g yg gk pernah terpecahkan..
haha..
i’m madly fall in love..
haha..
i hope i can finish my puzzle..
i think i found the piece..
and miss L..
thanks 4 the time..
i still remember our time together last year..
haha..

i’m sure your are one of my missing puzzle piece..
you were really-really give me many precious lesson..
without you i will never find the next piece..

haha..
thx L..

hope you will have many nice times in seattle..
i will miss the time i look forward to your face..
haha..

thx L..

because you just show me the way to the my next love piece..

you teach me many valuable lesson..

now i will start to try finish my puzzle..

and i think i’ve just meet my next piece..

i hope she will be my last piece..

haha..

bye…

Sunday, August 19 2007 12:32 AM

s.a.B.a.R 72

2009-07-09T12:39:00.001-07:00

new page of hope

Monday, June 18th, 2007

hari ini gw mulai hari hari baru gw…

gw udah bukan siswa sang timur lagi…

gw lom tw akan jadi siswa schl mane…

maybe go home to recis?

maybe yes maybe no..

haha..

tp…

masih ada sesuatu yang ketinggalan di ST…

masih ada seorang cw yang lom bisa gw lupain…

miss L..

just said it like that…

[kebanyakan baca death note gw... haha, but L is her initial.. i'm not lying]

from the beginining until this day..

i still doesn’t have any courage to say my feeling to u..

i luph u..

haha..

dunno..

if i meet a rejection…

fine…

approvement?

how happy i’m…

can’t discribe it…

haha…

L…

so long L…

i must be miss the time i secretly looking toward to ur face..

haha..

bye L

2009-07-09T12:38:00.003-07:00

tanpa arah dan jawaban

Thursday, April 26th, 2007

malam dingin…
hanya berdua dengan motorku di jalan sepi
kupacu motor ku mencari arah
arah dari jawaban semua ini
arah dari pencarian ku
hanya deru motor yang terdengar di telingaku
terus melaju di jalan yang tanpa ujung
terus mencari arah dari perjalananku
dinginnya angin malam menusuk tulang-tulangku
kesepian terus memenuhi jiwa
terus melaju tanpa arah yang pasti
mencari dirinya
dirinya yg merupakan arah hidupku
hanya dengan motor ku..
aku mencari arah dan jawaban dari pencarian ku
mencari arah dari dirimu
mencari jawaban dari bibir manismu
tapi,
tak pernah ketemukan dirimu…
memberikan aku arah
atau pun berikan aku jawaban
hanya udara dingin
yang keluar dari senyum dingin mu
yang terus menusuk-nusuk tulang-tulangku
tak pernah ada sepatah kata pun
hanya senyum dingin mu…
yang terus menemani perjalanan tanpa arah ku…
perjalanan yang tak akan pernah terselesaikan
tanpa arah…
tanpa jawaban…
dari dirimu…
hei…
gw ini emang gk jago buat puisi…
tapi itu cuman ungkapan hati gw…
yah someone i luph…
do that to me…
with out any answer…
just a cold smile…
hahaha…
she never really smiling to me dude…
hahaha…
how poor i’m…
hahaha
…sss…aaa…bbb…aaa…rrr…

2009-07-09T12:38:00.001-07:00

i luph u… u hate me… don’t know what to do…

Monday, March 19th, 2007

hai reader…

gw lom lama ini…

hari jumat kmaren…

ribut ma cw..

cw yg gw sukain…

cw yg gk bosen-bosen gw pandangin dari sudut mana pun..

gw gk tw kalo dia benci ma gw…

gw gk tw kalo dia tuh super benci ma gw…

mpe kyk gtw…

masalah na…

gw gk tw salah gw apa…

ato apa yg buat dia ilfil ma gw…

she call me busybody n greedy son of bitch…

busybody?

maybe i’m…

but i’m trying not to be a busybody…

but..

sometime…

when i’m really ask something i need to know…

people still call me busybody…

and what u say about that…

that’s fine…

gw gk marah soal itu…

greedy…

don’t know…

gw gk tw point lu apa buat bilang gw greedy…

tapi kalo son of bitch…

GW BENER-BENER MARAH BUAT YANG ITU

GW BENCI BANGET ORANG KATAIN ORANG TUA GW

ORANG TUA GW TUH BUKAN PELACUR

LU MAU KATAIN GW PELACUR KEK GIGOLO KEK GERMO KEK

GW GK AKAN MARAH KALO ITU REASONABLE

TAPI KALO SON OF BITCH

ITU UDAH GAK REASONABLE LAGI!

TAU DARI MANA LU ORANG TUA GW PELACUR?

EMANG ORANG TUA GW BUAT SALAH APA AMA LU?

AMPE LU KATAIN GTW?

KATAIN YANG DIRECT DONG!

KATAIN GW BUSYBODY N GREEDY BITCH/GIGOLO

GW GK AKAN TERLALU MARAH

HAK LU BUAT CELA GW KALO GW PUNYA SALAH AMA LU!

TAPI BUKAN HAK LU CELA ORANG TUA GW YANG GAK PUNYA HUBUNGAN APA-APA AMA LU!

KENAL AJAH KAGAK LU!

tapi bukan berarti gw akan katain lu balik..

gw gk akan panggil lo son of bitch

gw gk akan bilang kalo lu tuh pelacur…

karna kenyataan na lu bukan kan?

gw gk tw harus berbuat apa…

meski lu kyk gtw…

itu bukan berarti gw akan lupain lu gtw ajah…

meski temen gw bilang lupain ajah tuh cw…

waktu gw baca PM lu tuh gw kesal habis..

tapi gw skarng sudah tidak sekesal jumat kemarin

gw udh gk pikirin itu…

yg g mw cuman lu jelasin ma gw…

salah apa gw sama lu…

apa ke kepoan gw sangatlah mengganggu lu?

apa mengajak chat adalah suatu kekepoan?

apa tanya lu ikut ui ato gk itu kepo?

gw juga ke ui gtw…

gw mw tw siapa ajah yg ikut ke ui…

apa itu juga dianggap kepo?

gw gk tw definisi kepo itu kayak apa…

gw gk tw musti omong apa…

kalau lu mw bantu gw…

explain it to me…

explain why u hate me…

gw gk akan beradu argumen sama lu..

gw cuman mw tw ajah…

enough…

kalo permintaan gw termasuk kepo juga…

ya udh..

gw gk bisa omong lagi…

2009-07-09T12:35:00.004-07:00

hiDUp ku… kemBaLi haMPa…

Thursday, March 1st, 2007

makin hampa ajah hidup gw…. gk tw neh mw ngapain skarang,,, jam 7.37pm… alah!
bt gw… mw nongkrong tapi motor gk isa di pakai… mw ngokar…. rokok tinggal 1…
terus gk puna duit buat beli baru…
aarkhhhhhh
hidup ini mulai membosankan lagi…
setelah gw hampir menemukan kembali sensasi dan gairah hidup gw… gw mulai kehilangan lagi…
cw itu…
udh ngerusak na… ngerusak semua na… menjatuhkan harga diri gw sampai bisa disamakan oleh binatang…
100% win 4 her…
gw sempet mw take revenge…
tapi buat apa… toh mungkin ini revenge dia terhadap gw… dan dia sukses abis…
membuat gw memohon sampai seperti anjing yang lum makan… terus membuat gw menunggu ampe rasa na mw mati… kasih g harapan yang hanya dusta…
u sucks…
gw gk sangka lu akan berbuat itu ama gw… padahal gw masih sayang ama lu…
tapi skarang…
gw gk tw mw ngapain…
saat gw pikir gw bakalan dapat ngerasain perasaan 2 taon yang lalu… saat qta masih in relation… saat qta masih saling sayang…
halah…
dari dulu lu gk pernah berubah…
gw pikir lu udh maafin kesalahn gw yang bener" gw buat saat gw udh lost control…
tapi…
itu cuman akal lu buat revenge me…
how poor i am…
100% win…
u just take ma spirit…
it’s been 2 weeks since u do that to me…
u ar to sucks to be loved…
g nyesel bener… nganggap lu ada lah something precious…
gw gk tw apa yg harus gw lakuin…

start from this bLog…
this will be ma last note a bout u…
dan smoga pas g baca ini blog lagi…
gw bisa inget… betapa sucks na lu… dan betapa udh lu sakitin hati gw…

from now…

sTART A NEW LIFE !

FORGET THAT BITCH!

SHE JUST A NASTY BITCH!

haV a NicE daY mAN!

2009-07-09T12:35:00.003-07:00

posting ajah lah yah…

Thursday, February 8th, 2007

iseng neh…

gk ada kerjaan

jam 2.10AM 9 feb 07 skarang,,,

fiuh,,,

gk tersasa yah…

tinggal 3 hari lagi…

gw bakalan tambah tua…

adoh…

i’m tired of getting older…

kadang gw berharap gk mw jadi dewasa deh…

gw mw jadi anak kecil yg manja cengeng n lucu…

duh…..

gw bt…

umur g udh mw 17 taon..

tapi…

tingkah laku g masih kyk anak baru mw umur 17 hari kali yeh??

aduh…

puyeng…

gk tw neh mw gmana…

yg pasti…

pas gw ultah,,,

Pekan Ulangan

suCks berat gk??

makan"?

aduh gk deh…

gk puna duit koko…

paling traktiran rokok…

udh paling murah…

tapi temen g yg gk ngokar gmana??

puyeng dah…

mending gk ada yg gw teraktir yeh…

huehuehue…

hari ini jumat…

besok sabtu…

besok na lagi minggu…

besok na minggu hari ultah gw!

aduh…

kayak kemaren gw masih ngerasain enak na jadi anak kecil yang gendut bulet n cubby abis…

kalo liat foto masih chubby…

gw bingung…

kok anak chubby gtw isa jadi perokok dan bajingan gene yah?!

huehuehue…

seperti ilmu padi…

semakin tua semakin bajingan!

huahuahua…

tHx 4 reaDing…

G.0.D bLess U…

C.U

fLOoDed JakaRta, 9 FeB 07 2.18AM

2009-07-09T12:35:00.001-07:00

14 Desember 2006, 2.08 AM

Wednesday, December 13th, 2006

guys…

gw lagi dunno neh…

rasa na hidup gw makin hampa…

udh gk ada sensasi sensasi baru di hidup gw…

gw juga takut neh…

takut gk naik kelas lagi…

nilai gw masih jelek…

walau pun lebih bagus dari taon lalu seh…

moga moga gw naik kelas…

n rencana na taon depan gw mw bentuk club photography n design…

disetujuin gk yah proposal na…

sedih dh gw kalo gk di setujuin…

lagian kalo disetujuin pun…

ada yg mw ikut gk yah…

gw bingung…

kayak na sih…

harus na banyak yg mw ikut…

soal na kan mahkluk mahkluk yang narsis di ST makin hari makin banyak…

apa lagi mereka yg suka ngedit foto-foto na…

kan kalo ada club ini…

jadi media buat nyalurin hobby narsis qta!!

walau pun gw gk akan buat kegiatan foto diri sendiri…

paling hunting foto…

sekalian jalan" bareng temen" yah gk?!

seru sih pasti…

tapi…

kalo gk ada yg mw ikut…

huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…………………

nangis gw…

masa cuman gw ama marco…

itu mah gw gk ush buat klub…

guys!

doain taon depan bisa bentuk klub…

tyus bisa naik ke kelas XI gk peduli iPa ato iPs…

yG penting kelas XI!

haV a niCe daY!!!

2009-07-09T12:32:00.000-07:00

it’ fun to be jOmbLo!!

Wednesday, December 13th, 2006

fun to be jomblo…

huahuahua

dasar gw…

co yg kgk laku!

wakakakakakaka

bt gw…

udh lama kyk na…

gk ada cw yg bisa buat gw mabuk kepayang dan rela bela-belain semuana buat dia…

skARANg cw-cw yg gw gebet ato sempet gw pacarin paling lama juga cuman 1 bulan doang…

sejak taon ajaran baru udh ganti cw 3x…

wakakakakaka

kacau!!!

padahal dulu record jomblo gw 2 taon 1/2

wakakakakaka

biJi ngEdAYuT!

tapi semua na tuh hampa…

beda sama pas SMP dolo…

pas smp kalo jadian kykna enak banget dh…

tapi kenapa yagh…

di sma gw jadian cuman maen" mulu…

lom ada 1 cewe pun yg membuat gw tulus sayang sama dia 100%

kalo yg 10%sayang 90% body sih banyak…

tapi man…

kalo gw cuman cari cw yg bodyny bagus…

cuman mw hav fun doang…

gk deh..

gw moh kayak gtw..

gw pengen serius ama cw…

tapi gw gk tw…

knapa lom ada yg bisa ngebantu gw jawab yeh…

lom ada yg bener" bisa buat gw lupa daratan karna die…

apa gw udh mulai mencintai sesama jenis yah?!
gk lah yah…

gw masih co normal yg suka sama cw yang cantik!

hari-hari gw masih kyk biasa…

nothing special…

kayak na judul blog musti gw ganti…

hidup gw sekarnag udh gk extraordinary kyk dulu…

udh jadi reaLLy oRdiNaRy!

oH man!!

that’s suCKs!!!

kerjaan gw sekarang cuman…

cap sa…

poker…

bayar utang…

tapi gk pernah di bayar…

sedih na gw!!

maen cap sa ato poker kalah moLo!!!

bueteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

dompet gw…

udh jarang ada isi na skarang…

mulai aktif main warnet lagi…

kacau"…

2009-07-09T12:31:00.000-07:00

Sunday, October 15th, 2006

huahuahua…

hari minggu jam 9.00 PM

waktu yang tepat untuk ngetik bloG…

memang sih minggu ini adalah mungkin yang terbaik…

gw jadi best 10 di LDK…

walaupun gw juga menuai musuh dan teman di LDK…

yah orang yg gk suka sama gw tambah…

orang yg suka sama gw juga [mungkin] tambah…

huahuahua….

gw kgk peduli kalo dia gk suka sama gw…

yang pasti gw nyadar kalo ada orang gk suka sama gw…

gw juga nyadar kalo mereka sensiin gw…

karna gw memang bukan tipe orang yg di sukai sih…

maklum gw ituh type orang yang jadi public enemy…

huahuahua…

yah yang penting memang gw akuin kalau menurut gw mereka yang gk suka sama gw rata" anak kecil…

yah karna mereka cuman tw yg gw lakuin emang buat mereka gk enak…

yah gw emang menjudge mereka seperti itw…

co’z emang bwat gw mereka cuman anak kecil gtw coi…

anak kecil mah kayak gituw…

gk peduli gw…

yang penting hidup gw fun abis…

bukti na…

anak" PDKK yang mayoritas 20++ itu pada suka sama gw…

itu sih cuman masalah gaya dan pola pikir ajah…

gw gk peduli ama mereka orang…

yah yang pasti LDK itu bener" bikin gw capek…

mw mampus gw…

tidur jam 12++ bangun jam 4.00-4.30 an…

walah walah…

kalo di rumah gw kyk gtw nykp gw pasti seneng yah…

yah yg pasti memang LDK itu cukup menempa gw…

pulang dari LDK sekitar jam 4.30an sampe jakarta… topi PAD gw ilank…

Ngobrol ma nyokap…

tidur…

bangun jam 11.30AM…

makan…

nonton DVD…

tidur lagi ampe 6.30PM…

abis itu ke gereja latihan drama ampe jem 11an baru pulank…

cape banget…

terus tadi drama na juara 1!!!

dapet duit 1,2 jt tapi besok baru mw di rundingin buat apaan tuh duit…

trus hari ini gw resmiin hubungan gw ama Xiao Ce…

huahuahua….

gw cuman mw bilank ama lu yg baca ini bloG…

HAPPY DAY!!!

HAVE a NICE n FUN LIVE!!!

GOD BLESS U!!!

2009-07-09T12:29:00.000-07:00

cUApEeeeEEeeee

Sunday, September 10th, 2006

gw cuapeee bener….

hari jumat n sabtu…

gw debate practice lama bener…

sabtu kemaren cuman 1 round…

tapi 4 jem coi!!!

alah…

cape bener gw…

tapi gpp…

what make good debater are experiance…

huahuahua…

btw…

gw lagi suka denger chris bottin neh…

gk tw knapa…

alunan melodi dari alat musik na dia tuh…

sumpah enak banget…

mature jazz…

sumpah top abis ini orang…

huahuahua…

ih… cape deh…

btw inget tentang blog gw yg akhir" ini??

setelah gw pikir"

gw tampaknya memang masih sayang until now…

but…

g gk mw maksain perasaan gw…

sebenernya sih…

gw pingin jadian ma dia…

tapi yw…

nothing to say…

Yg pasti buat gw…

Kepuasan tertinggi dalam mencintai adlh…

melihat seorng yg kau cintai bahagia…

yw…

moga" dia awet dah sana…

[aslinya gw nyumpahin putus >.<]

gk lah…

gw gk sejahat itw…

huahuahua…

Yah…

Saatnya untuk menjadi dewasa…

soal dia…

pendam ajah di hati…

[padahal kadang" menggebu-gebu gtw...]

hauhauahua….

yg pasti…

gw udh bisa konsen lagi…

g udh gk jarang mikirin dia…

thanks to debate…

pas debate gw asli konsen ke motion gw…

gk ada waktu buat mikirin dia…

tapi yah…

i’m still love her…

but nothing to say…

just wanna look u happy…

btw otw busway…

gara" dia tuh…

gw jadi dengerin

"Hapus Aku"

alah…

Tuhan yakinkan aku kalau dia bukan milikku…
Biar waktu…..
Waktu…..
Hapus aku….

huahuahua….

dah lah yah…

gw mw tidur dolo…

cape gw…

besok gw mw PU…

n it’s now 3.00 AM…

huahuahua….

gila juga gw…

yw udh…

bu bye…

2009-07-09T12:27:00.002-07:00

tHe giRL haV a boY fRiEnD…

Tuesday, August 29th, 2006

tHis DaY…

h0nEstLy…

i fEEL suCks…

kaLo yG seMpeT baCa poSt terakhir gw pasti inget…

g tuLis gW laGi FaLL iN luPh….

yAH seMua na hAmpiR saJa beRaKhiR

cuMaN…

g gK mw aKHiRin…

g uDH teRLanjUR sAYanG ma diA…

gw kAN seTiA mEnunGGu…

n 6 buLaN laGi g mW naGiH janJi dia…

gw tagih entah bagai mana pun cara na…

alah udH kaYak laGU na cLub 80…

yg daRi haTi…

Lirik na…

Kuingin kau menjadi milik ku…

Entah bagaimana pun caranya

gw sebener na…

sakit hati waktu gw denger yg di ucapin…

tapi…

gw gk tw musti bilang apa…

gw cuman bisa senyum dan bergaya seperti itu tuh "NOTHING!"

tapi…

ternyata itw nyakitin hati gw abis…

gw emang terlalu lemah…

hal kayak gtw ajah udh sangat nyakitin gw…

kejadian yg hampir sama juga pernah terjadi beberapa tahun yg lalu…

saat itw gw lebih lemah dari ini…

yaw suw lah…

gw gk tw mw bilang apa lagi…

yg pasti itw bukan sesuatu yg bakalan mupusin perasaan gw…

gw akan lakuin segala yg mampu gw lakuin bwt dia…

kalo dia gk suka co ngeroko…

gw akan berenti…

kalo dia gk suka gw yg agak" extreem…

gw akan berusaha tampil lebih kalem…

walau pun itu arti na membatasin expresi gw…

tapi yw udh…

cinta emang buth perngorbanan…

gw gk tw perngorbanan apa lagi yg bisa gw lakuin…

gw…

gw sayang ma lu ***…

kenapa saat itw lu kasih gw chance…

kenapa??

kalo saat itw gk ada chance itu…

gw gk akan ngerasain perasaan ini…

gw gk akan ngerasain yg namanya sakit hati…

gw gk akan jadi lemah kayak gini…

my heart was bleeching…

but no one can stop d rain of blood…

just me…

or may be u can stop it…

but i wanna say it to u…

it just maybe…

*** kalo lo baca blog g…

gw cuman mw bilang kalo ini perasaan gw saat lu bilang lu jadian ama ***…

gw cuman bisa senyum buat nahan sakit hati gw…

***…

kalo lo udh baca ini…

lupain semua kata" gw…

gw cuman minta lu buat inget 1 kalimat…

"Gw menunggu lo meski gw gk tw gw bisa tunggu lu sampai kapan dan sampai kapan gw harus menunggu"

itw ajah…

2009-07-09T12:27:00.001-07:00

wHen i FaLL iN luPH…

Sunday, August 27th, 2006

Huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

whaT iS d mEaNinG oF loVe???

gw gk tw dehhhh

yg gw taw gw lagi jatuh cinta beratttttttttt

gw lagi keasmaraan neH!!!

yuuu….

skarang saat na saya bercerita!!!

Jadi gini cerita na…

19Agustus kmaren gw pergi ret"

nah pas di ret" itw gw ketemu ma cw yg gw buat gw mabuk kepayang…

nama na…

p**c***a m**ik*

nah selanjut na gw sebut dia si p-m ajah yah…

p-m tuh dateng ret" dipaksa ma nykp na…

n gw juga rada" kepaksa soal na…

long weekend gw gk ada acara

jadi yah ikut gw…

eh ternyata…

gw malah ketemu ma si p-m

p-m tuh…

tampang na juetuekkkkkk buangetttt

tapi…

ternyata…

dia manis loGh!! >.<

aDUh…

gw seneng banget yah…

pas ret" gw sih gk yakin sama perasaan gw…

tapi…

ternyata…

pas dalam perjalanan pulang…

gw di kompor"in…

dan gw emang udh kyk minyak…

ketemu api yah gw nyamber…

jadi inti na gw nembak si p-m

terus abis itw…

gw di tolak T.T

akw sedih……….

tapi….

ternyata…

secarik harapan datang…

kata na…

dia nolak karna lom kenal…

jadi kata dia…

dia mw mengenal gw dulu…

baru mutusin dia mw jadian ma gw ato gk…

tapi…

waktu yg di minta 6bln…

gw musti pertahanin perasaan gw 6 bln…

hue…

6 bulan sih geli" bwat gw…

dulu gw sayang ma oline ampe 2taonan lebih…

almost 3 year i think…

yang pasti sumpah gw gk tw musti bilang apa…

gw bener" lagi

fall

luph

p-M…

uR bRighT up mY daY…

tHx G.0.D

b’coZ oF U…

i mEEt thiS loVeLy n sWeeT giRL…

bu bYE dEH guYS!!!

tuNGGu keLanjuTaN daRi kiSaH ciNta gw denGan p-M!!

wakakakakakaka

sAAt diA uDH kASIH jawABaN pasTi g aKAn reVeAL semuA na!!!

jaDi…

tunGGu aJHhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Aku Lepas dari Perasaan itw…

2009-07-09T12:24:00.002-07:00

Aku Lepas dari Perasaan itw…

Monday, August 14th, 2006

i’m hAPpY n pRouD to mY sELF!!!

g uDH beRhASiL lupAiN cW na tMeN gw!!!

yEaH!!!!!!!

i LuPh tHis woRLd…

kmArEn SabtU G tERsADArKaN…

kALAu cw…

itW beDa…

peRsEpsI g uDH beRubAH!!!

yEaH….

giRL alWaYS aCt liKE thaT wHEn thEy waS coMfoRTabLE wiTh s0mE one…

oH maN…

tHAt soUnds g00d…

n dARi kemArEN DotA g sENeNG abIS…

aKHiR na…

g bISa dENiES!!!

yEAh!!!

akHiR na sKILL laST hiT cREEp g JALAn…

yEAHhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

aCiK eUY…

2009-07-09T12:24:00.001-07:00

luV my fRiENd giRL…

Thursday, July 27th, 2006

AkH………………..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gw pengen teriak deh…

gmana seH….

maSa gw suka ma cw temen gw….

kan gK baNgeT…

tUcH cw se0Lah membERi KeSEmpaTAN laGe…

aKh….

suCK bANGET!!!!!!!!!

cANtiK laGi…

dUH…

whAT SHOULD i DO???!!

g pUSiNK…

kALO g jABaNin sALah…

Gk g laYAniN..

rUGi g !!!!!!

tEMAN TEMAN BANTU AKu!!!!!!!!!

aK meNGingiNi nYA!!!

aPA g d0aiN diE puTUs yEH…

oH GOD…

g GK biSA giTU mA tEMEN senDIRI!!!

whY???!!!!!!!

WHy!?????????????

wHAT SHOULD I DO??!!

kALO gW gANGGu mEREKa…

g M-T abIS!!!

ALah…

dASaR g…

aNDai g seLangKAg LebiH cEPAt daRi dia…

andAi g M-T…

aNdAi g lEBIH mENTinGIn cW daRI pADa teMEN…

oH GOD…

hELP Me!!

i cAN’t do THiS…

nALuRI pRIa daN haTi kECiL g bERTenTAnGAN…

oh….

tHAT sHIT…

shIT aR g00d…

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the first one..

2009-07-09T12:15:00.001-07:00

i've done it..

haha..

now I'll move all of my story from my old blog here..

haha..

let's have fun inside the blog!!