That 'Fire' Burn Everything

Not like usual, on today post I will talk as realist.

I've been to numerous of relationship with 'fire'

It happen very well day to day, on almost all relationship till you start to play with 'fire'.

Well it always feel very warm on the first place, obviously.. it put more color and those are color are truly bright.

it make your day, everyday. *yeah, a sarcasm there*

but when that time come you just realize that playing with 'fire' will burn you.

it burn me twice, when it happen and goes beyond what you can imagine, the 'fire' burn you..

you start to forget what is the reason you are signing up for that relation, 'fire' become your reason to continue that relation, you just want the 'fire' turned 'on' without realizing that it burn you really hard.

it burn your feeling, if burn your reason to dating on the very first place *except 'fire' is your reason to sign up on that particular relationship*

for me, those relations never start for only 'fire'. I always start my relation with a genuine feeling to find that ideal couple that will be with me forever ever after *sorry for this optimist side, it always inside me*.

but those feeling always burned.

this is way at the end i come up with a conclusion.

When you don't have enough strong feeling that will always cool you down, don't play with 'fire' it will burn you till the grass road level.

Last night, I overtake it, almost can't control that will inside me and lead me to anger.

Obviously that was a very bad move, thank God it take only a while to realize.

I almost bring that shit into surface again.

NO, I wouldn't do that again without have a strong bonding that is 'fire'-proof.

I don't want to burn this relationship again.

Those 'fire' always and will keep destroying my relationship if I don't have 'fire'-proof bonding.

Because it will burn your genuine reason and replace it with only lust.

Avoid it Sabar, be wise.

2:26AM

3/7/2012

Time

Two years ago i fell in love to a girl.

Today she already become a Woman.

But yeah, all the reason why i love her still same and know I even have bigger spectrum.

That girl, already grow into a woman. she is now wiser than me, she is now looks more mature than me.

But yeah, still weird! when will the time i call her mine will come yah?

Hahaha, don't hope to much brother! you right?! *BRO FIST!*

See you got it bro!

Let things flow in the most suitable manner!

When i do post?

I somehow realize when i do a post it's always when i was fall in love.

When i don't really into someone or already in relationship. I stop posting..

hahaha

desperate

some times, in life we have time where we are desperate..
yeah even the most confident person with a high spirit and motiation have time to be desperate enough.

yeah that is a matter of situation and condition..

there is this condition like this, even me will going down so bad..

even i'm proud to say that i have a high motivational skill toward myself, and also super high confidence.

i must say this is my time of going down, this is the part of your life where you are going down so bad..,

when you feel you make the bad choice, you make a choice that will destroy someone relationship, and you know that choice is bad enough.

you try to keep motivate yourself that, this isn't a bad choice but you simply can't resist it,

you need this kind of time, you nee the time where you feel desperate and miserable out of your league..

be your deep feeling where you are afraid to move on and straight for the best.

you also believe leaving this isn't a solution.

you must keep forward and fight for everything.

but the pain, yeah it's painful and sucks.

but when you stop today, you will regret it.

i make a bad choice but i don't regret it

why in the hell you must regret your bad choice?

FIGHT for it, make your choice become the bad but right choice..

you can Sabar, yes you can..

but in the end you must realize that even you sometimes need times like this, where you write a blog..

throwing away your feeling.. believe that this is the best media where you can do it..

where not lot of people can read it and you feel secure..

especially when the one that you love didn't know you write here..


Sabarudin Adinugroho
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24 April 2011
One week before your birthday.

hurt

it's hurt..

the idea, i should be ready for this..

and i don't complain with this current condition.

this is the idea of i already try and yeah sometimes there is thing you shoulnd't know.

i must speak the idea that my current life isn't bad..

i must see this hurted part is part of my journey.

and yeah, if i dont survive this part i cant fight for the next step.

sabar, you must fight..that condition shouldn't stop you.

you already getting this far, you must continue..

fight sabar, dont chicken out..

yes you can fight!

sabarudin.adinugroho

That is just wrong!! That is just WRONG ! WRONG and WRONG !!

Hi, long time since my last post..
i would like to express a lot of thing here..
but what i would like to express is actually quiet simple, it's all about wrong things.

right, several people say doing wrong thing is wrong and it's sucks..

but what is the definition of wrong things?

i do think that is a very normative value, the idea is you like or not to do it?
are you used to do that or not?
are you that thing happen everyday??

when you don't like it, you can say it is wrong..
when you aren't used to do that, you can say it is wrong
when that something unusual, you can say it wrong..

i do that all the time, i always say i don't do wrong things
i put a strong border on my life that i wouldn't do that..


but here go the story of me, like a year ago there is people telly me that eating friend banana with chili taste awesome but i don't believe it..

i say this, "Yes, it may taste good, it may taste awesome, but sorry..it's just wrong, and i don't do wrong thing"

but yesterday there is this girl told me same thing, "ENAK! rasanya itu enak! pake sambel itu enak!" and my answer still same,"Maybe it's good, but it's just wrong and I don't eat it because it's wrong"

but in less then 12 hours, i do a wrong thing. but yes i enjoyed so bad !!

I even yelling and jumping in the middle of street to express my happiness!!

that's crazy right? yeah, it's freaking crazy...

then i realize, doing something wrong isn't always bad..
it's about courage to get out from you safe zone, in the zone that I always say things wrong.

that's is my safe zone and i will quit that zone.

How??

my first action is, Go to Beautika (Manadonese restaurant) and order that friend banana with chili !!



Cheers,


Sabarudin Adinugroho

Sense of Security

How to make someone feel secure?

I make a big decision, yeah I'm throwing my self to the same hole again

but I will never regret this decision..

yes for you CEL.

I will do it..

I will jump to that hole again to bring you sense of security..

and of course, a better relationship.


Sabarudin Adinugroho